So last night I had my first pole class in a few weeks,
with my beginner series ending and going to vacation a few weeks slipped by but
I finally got my booty into class last night. And I am so glad I did. Perhaps a
few weeks off was just what I needed because last night things just started to
really click for me. I was able to hold my ice skater spin around the pole for
the whole time, it only took me one miss start to get into my head stand and
for the first time I also got my head off the ground. My mount into my climb
was effortless and for the first time I felt like I might actually be able to
climb. (We didn’t climb thought yesterday because it was the first time most of
the girls were learning their mounts, next class we will see if I can get that
climb though!) and I also got both of my feet of the ground at the same time
for my fan legs! This is huge for me! they are still tiny, not very attractive fan
legs but they are on their way!
Mostly though I was just amazed at how natural everything
felt, amazed at how my body is learning and growing and strengthening in such a
sort amount of time. I left class just feeling amazing and I cannot wait for my
next class. I think I am going to sign up for my first mixed levels class soon.
Up till now I have been in classes full of people in my level and the idea of
taking a mixed level class intimidates me, but I think that is just why I need
to do it. There is one on Saturday night that is a full range class Beginner to
Advanced taught by the owner of the studio that I am thinking of doing. Actually,
no, that I am doing. I just signed up
for it right now *deep breath* I really like Mel (the owner) and I’m sure the
class will be wonderful, I think I’m just scared of being judged. Which is
silly, every girl I have ever had class with is amazing and supportive. Also they
will be working on their own stuff, why would they worry about what I am doing?
Sometimes, I think, as humans we have this idea that we
are the center of the world. That people cannot help but notice us and think about
us all the time. This is not true. And I have to remind myself of that. Even strangers
who really annoy me don’t get more than a passing thought in the moment of
annoyance. I need to remind myself that.
On a side note, I just noticed that one of the series I won
is going to expire at the beginning of February and I need to ask Mel if I can extend
that or something cuz I never got a chance to use it because of the class
schedule. If not, I totally understand it was a prize after all they are not
required to make sure I use the classes, but really, I’d love to have those 4
free classes. I mean who wouldn’t?